teetalks

“no matter what anyone says or does, my task is to be good. like gold or emerald or purple repeating to itself, "no matter what anyone says or does, my task is to be emerald, my color undiminished.”

  • 11.6.25

    11.6.25

    Inconsistency is all I know. ADHD ADD PCOS endometriosis blaaaaah blaaaah blaaaahhh. Im sitting here watching Oliver & Company thinking… what would I look like as a cartoon? Would I be a bug or a fairy or an animal? Would I be a toaster, blanket, lamp, radio or even a vacuum? Would my hair be Continue reading

  • 8.14.25

    I’m here at Barnes n Noble “doing homework” and I realize how painful research is. I really only ever want to share my opinion because I’m not a scientist, I’m a brat. Someone else did research and I believe that their efforts and integrity are trustworthy because honestly I’m just lazy. I am lazy in Continue reading

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  • 7.28.25 Monday

    I really think about this space to write quite often and for whatever reason can’t pull the trigger when I want to write. Theres even an app, I am still not committed. I haven’t been to the gym, I don’t run, if I’m too tired I cancel yoga. Am I lazy or is it “ADHD”, Continue reading

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  • 6/25/25 Wednesday

    Wednesday was full of woe. I was born on a Wednesday so, that adds up. I saw an old best friend today, she was 50 feet in front of me with her daughter and a friend who had children with her. I could have shouted but really; I didn’t feel any urge, I didn’t feel Continue reading

  • Mon 6/2/25

    Holy shit it’s been a while. Ya know, I really hate killing bugs, of any kind. I hate killing ants, spiders, accidentally having them hit my windshield makes me feel guilt for so long. Smacking a mosquito feels barbaric, I know they carry pathogens but it’s a life. I took its life. The only ones Continue reading

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  • 2.19.25

    Its been so long. The apartment is now our home. Not all of my things are here but Paul is, Shenzi’s ashes are and Angel is here. We’re all stinkin up the place. Ive never been so in love and in such grief at the same time. Ive never had the safety in a relationship Continue reading

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  • 1.9.25 thursday

    I almost feel like a fool, wanting things for myself. We’re still setting up our new little home and I think about things my mom has, an electric can opener she keeps on the counter. I want one, I don’t have much counter space but I want one, I can put it away and then Continue reading

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  • 1.7.25 tuesday

    Technically it’s Wednesday now but I’m home from work wide awake, just thinking. Today is our 2 year anniversary and I can’t believe someone tolerated me and my madness for this long. That’s dramatic but I feel like I’m a handful. We moved into our new apartment and its quirky and cozy just like us. Continue reading

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  • 12.17.24 tuesday

    Life can be so weird and sad sometimes. I’ve only ever felt lonely when im longing for something that doesn’t belong to me. my friendships have never felt lifelong, even the good ones. ever waiting for the eventual end, i grieve their loss before it comes. The friends I have now, I am unsure, if Continue reading

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  • san francisco

    If I sank into the earth, what would become of me? I feel so heavy above ground. Would I grow into something huge, like these sequoia trees? Or a sweet and friendly daisy? Do daisies know they’re kind? Maybe I’d be a simple blade of grass, a dog could chew on me for tummy aches. Continue reading