Solar eclipse today. Such a special and rare moment to experience with the entire world. Everyone worshipping, or ignoring. Not noticing. The light shifts and I think if anyone else notices like I do. Like how right after golden hour, the colors of life are so vibrant. Like life on film, a glow. I live… Continue reading

I think about my birthday coming and being celebrated. Its so funny to think everyone associates leo’s with needing the spotlight. I am my own spotlight, I just would like to be celebrated the way I celebrate others. To be loved is to be known. People have their lives and are busy, I understand. I… Continue reading

Tuesday Recently we had dinner with family, they bought their first home together so we celebrated! It’s such a huge deal, especially with how expensive home buying is. Anyway, we got into discussions about amazon and netflix and how Paul&I cancelled it months ago, we don’t even think about it. I don’t miss it, I… Continue reading

I hosted my first book club this week. It was beautiful. Everyone was laughing and relaxing, eating. It was a tight fit, it worked out that not everyone could make it because my apartment isn’t big enough. I loved hearing everyone’s perspective and how much we all agreed about how bad the book was. It… Continue reading

Friday I take a shower and lay on my bed. No towel, air drying with the summer. Angel is here with me, her wagging tail brushes my belly, rolls, stretch marks, scars. She leans over to kiss my shin, whatever is near is good enough for her. Me in all my skin, she in hers.… Continue reading

I miss this version of myself from a long time ago. A long time ago, in a galaxy of my mind far far away. I was fun. I wasn’t so grated by life, relationships, my own thoughts. I always felt alone and that was fine then I guess. I can be really hot and cold,… Continue reading

I did it. After 20 years, I sang in public. It feels so wild to think I waited so long, silly. Im so proud of myself, Paul helped me, as usual. I don’t think he even thinks he did but, it’s true. Singing was always so complicated for me, I didn’t care about being good… Continue reading

I have always been vulnerable, transparent and honest. I never knew when to keep my cards close to my vest or whatever the hell that phrase is. I am, always, an open book. I can keep a secret if needed, especially others secrets. I spill my verbal drink on any surface that can catch it.… Continue reading

Becoming the butterfly, according to Paul: Continue reading