teetalks

Inconsistency is all I know. ADHD ADD PCOS endometriosis blaaaaah blaaaah blaaaahhh. Im sitting here watching Oliver & Company thinking… what would I look like as a cartoon? Would I be a bug or a fairy or an animal? Would I be a toaster, blanket, lamp, radio or even a vacuum? Would my hair be blue with stickers on my face?

I definitely would not be a robot.

Paul taught me how to use a drill today and I put up a trinket shelf. Amazingly, I didn’t fill each pocket.

Tonight we take his sister out for birthday dinner, Im so excited! I feel like we have a great relationship, she’s such a cool girl but also a girls girl. Shes so deeply kind and supportive. Whenever Ive mentioned wanting to lose weight or not liking my hair, she won’t even let me finish my complaint against myself and gives me unrelenting compliments and cheer. I feel very lucky to know her and to be able to call her a sister in law one day. She truly is a rare and special gem.

Im still anxiously waiting to see if I got into the nursing program, everyone keeps saying I will but my baseline is to doubt myself.

I know Im smart, capable, my mom always called me brilliant. Thats a stretch but shes my number one fan. I hope I do because thats where this blog all started, with confusion about what to do with my life. Should I write should I teach should I publish stories should I go back to theater? ALL OF THE ABOVE I AM UNSTOPPABLE!

Paul and I made a shrine or “ofrenda” for our passed away puppies. I hope it’s not cultural appropriation but I really love how special the space is, to honor the innocent little dears. We placed a bowl of water to hydrate them on their journey and a little bowl of treats they liked. Its sweet.

Can you believe Im still putting the apartment together, tidying and putting furniture away. My kermit phone is on the floor because it doesn’t have a home. I’ll figure it out eventually.