teetalks

“no matter what anyone says or does, my task is to be good. like gold or emerald or purple repeating to itself, "no matter what anyone says or does, my task is to be emerald, my color undiminished.”

life

  • 8.14.25

    I’m here at Barnes n Noble “doing homework” and I realize how painful research is. I really only ever want to share my opinion because I’m not a scientist, I’m a brat. Someone else did research and I believe that their efforts and integrity are trustworthy because honestly I’m just lazy. I am lazy in Continue reading

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  • 7.28.25 Monday

    I really think about this space to write quite often and for whatever reason can’t pull the trigger when I want to write. Theres even an app, I am still not committed. I haven’t been to the gym, I don’t run, if I’m too tired I cancel yoga. Am I lazy or is it “ADHD”, Continue reading

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  • Mon 6/2/25

    Holy shit it’s been a while. Ya know, I really hate killing bugs, of any kind. I hate killing ants, spiders, accidentally having them hit my windshield makes me feel guilt for so long. Smacking a mosquito feels barbaric, I know they carry pathogens but it’s a life. I took its life. The only ones Continue reading

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  • 1.9.25 thursday

    I almost feel like a fool, wanting things for myself. We’re still setting up our new little home and I think about things my mom has, an electric can opener she keeps on the counter. I want one, I don’t have much counter space but I want one, I can put it away and then Continue reading

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  • 1.7.25 tuesday

    Technically it’s Wednesday now but I’m home from work wide awake, just thinking. Today is our 2 year anniversary and I can’t believe someone tolerated me and my madness for this long. That’s dramatic but I feel like I’m a handful. We moved into our new apartment and its quirky and cozy just like us. Continue reading

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  • 12.17.24 tuesday

    Life can be so weird and sad sometimes. I’ve only ever felt lonely when im longing for something that doesn’t belong to me. my friendships have never felt lifelong, even the good ones. ever waiting for the eventual end, i grieve their loss before it comes. The friends I have now, I am unsure, if Continue reading

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  • 12.5.24 thursday

    My hormones affect me greatly, I am so easily swayed by irritability and fatigue. I know being diagnosed with PCOS and endometriosis is an “answer” for “understanding” but how am I supposed to deal with this? Hmmm herbal tea, avoid carcinogens, avoid caffeine and sugar and also even though you’re in pain do weight lifting Continue reading

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