I think my biggest regret is not;
- Not going to Stella Adler to study theater.
- Not going to culinary school to become a private chef.
- Not becoming a puppeteer when I had the opportunities.
It was damaging the most important friendship of my life. I will forever grieve our friendship. You meant the world to me and still do. I still love you the same. We haven’t been close for over 10 years and if you wanted me back in your life, I wouldn’t deserve it. I was so selfish and immature, I handled things with cruelty instead of curiosity and kindness. I will never forgive myself.
I think about you every time I hear Christina Aguilera or Icelandic metal. You were truly the best friend I ever had and I ruined it. I never realized how easily I was influenced by the people around me and now, I continue to suffer the consequences of being manipulated into other peoples judgements. That was weak, poor character on my part.
What I learned from you will take me through life, you opened me to new food and how to love myself. Your love was unconditional, special, rare. You encourage people to follow their dreams, you are the biggest supporter Ive ever met.
I cant count how many times we laughed so hard until it hurt and we begged it to stop. We had so much fun, I cannot believe you’re not a part of my life. You were my biggest protector, you brought me so much joy. You would have been my maid of honor, the god mother to my children. You were my family, in my heart you still are.
It is all my fault. I love you forever.
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