teetalks

“no matter what anyone says or does, my task is to be good. like gold or emerald or purple repeating to itself, "no matter what anyone says or does, my task is to be emerald, my color undiminished.”

  • 7/10/26

    Friday I take a shower and lay on my bed. No towel, air drying with the summer. Angel is here with me, her wagging tail brushes my belly, rolls, stretch marks, scars. She leans over to kiss my shin, whatever is near is good enough for her. Me in all my skin, she in hers.… Continue reading

  • 7/4/26

    I miss this version of myself from a long time ago. A long time ago, in a galaxy of my mind far far away. I was fun. I wasn’t so grated by life, relationships, my own thoughts. I always felt alone and that was fine then I guess. I can be really hot and cold,… Continue reading

  • 7/2/26

    I did it. After 20 years, I sang in public. It feels so wild to think I waited so long, silly. Im so proud of myself, Paul helped me, as usual. I don’t think he even thinks he did but, it’s true. Singing was always so complicated for me, I didn’t care about being good… Continue reading

  • 6/16/26 Tuesday

    I have always been vulnerable, transparent and honest. I never knew when to keep my cards close to my vest or whatever the hell that phrase is. I am, always, an open book. I can keep a secret if needed, especially others secrets. I spill my verbal drink on any surface that can catch it.… Continue reading

  • 6/12/26 friday

    6/12/26 friday

    I don’t hate you but, I definitely don’t miss you. Funny to think that you never actually liked me, all these years, wasting your own time. I wish I noticed sooner, could have been freer. You’re not my enemy but never again a friend. Im surprised I endured. Relieved by its end. Life has exploded… Continue reading

  • 05/28-26

    Becoming the butterfly, according to Paul: Continue reading

  • 05/17/26

    contamination. I have spent so much time analyzing relationships and my place in them. Whether I’m important to them, if they’re healthy for me, where is this going, is this my best friend, is this a lover, do they truly see me and care about me, is this a place holder, a lesson, an old… Continue reading

  • 4/24/26 friday

    Hello. I was up late last night thinking about things as one does and I had something written in my head and then went to bed. Naturally. I forgot. What was on my racing mind is usually my relationships, current, past, future. What they’ve given or taken away and what I learned about myself from… Continue reading

  • 4/21/26 – Tuesday

    Realizing how negatively influenced I have been by friends in the past made me notice how inappropriately violence has been in the center.  Recognizing certain words, phrases, ideas, belief systems under the guise and manipulation of “being based” or trying “not to be woke” has only hindered what actually matters, understanding, kindness and respect.  My… Continue reading

  • 4/2/26

    Hello I cant believe my life sometimes, I feel so clueless. I tend to be very polar, all in or all out. I fully agree or disagree and it changes. Relationships, friends, movies, music, I can be all or nothing. One day I am 100% more of my 100% self and agreeing with a career… Continue reading